In Conclusion

I don’t feel the way I used to

The sky is gray much more than it is blue

But I know one day I’ll get thru

And I’ll take my place again

 

So I will try

So I will try

 

I don’t love the way I need to

You need more and I know that much is true

So I’ll fight for a break thru

And I’ll breathe in you again

 

If I would try

If I would try

 

There is no one for me to blame

‘Cause I know the only thing in my way

is me

 

I don’t live the way I want to

That whole picture never came into view

And I’m tired of getting used to

The day

 

So I will try

So I will try

If I would try

If I would try

Try” by Mandy Harvey

This will be my last post on this blog for a long time. Maybe forever. I’m not sure yet. But I know for now, my voice will be silent. Though there is more to say, it may be time for others to say it.

I have put my heart, soul and intellect into this blog and I do not regret it. I did it for Dzhokhar. I still believe he will ultimately be exonerated and set free. This is what I believe God has shown me.

Someday, when there is another trial, maybe I will be compelled again to speak out. Hopefully the new defense team will actually defend him.

I’ve been thinking today about the Bible story of the Tower of Babel:

Genesis 11:1-8

Now the whole world had one language and a common speech. As people moved eastward, they found a plain in Shinar and settled there. They said to each other, “Come, let’s make bricks and bake them thoroughly.” They used brick instead of stone, and tar for mortar. Then they said, “Come, let us build ourselves a city, with a tower that reaches to the heavens, so that we may make a name for ourselves, otherwise we will be scattered over the face of the earth.” 

But the Lord came down to see the city and the tower the people were building. The Lord said, “If as one people speaking the same language they have begun to do this, then nothing they plan to do will be impossible for them. Come, let us go down and confuse their language so they will not understand each other.” 

So the Lord scattered them from there over all the earth, and they stopped building the city.

I believe the Lord led me to this verse today because it is time for the scattering of Dzhokhar supporters to happen. For an appointed time, we have spoken out about Dzhokhar, proving, by the evidence presented and not presented at trial, that he is innocent.

But I find that some of us are now not speaking the same language and the reason, I believe, is contained in the Bible passage: “so that we may make a name for ourselves.”

I have never been about that and I never will be. God alone will get the glory for the way in which He causes Dzhokhar’s exoneration and release and He will not share that glory.

In the meantime, it’s time for me to get back to my life. Because of this case, I have met some people I will never forget. People with good hearts and clear vision. I thank all who have faithfully read my blog and encouraged and supported me as I wrote it. I wish you well.

May we all do our part to work for a better world. One day, I believe Dzhokhar Tsarnaev will again be part of it.

10 thoughts on “In Conclusion”

  1. Lynn, I’m so sad over this. Your beautiful use of the English language inspires me. You are a writer and a beautiful writer. A gift that God gave you. Your posts are important and often comforting in this horrible injustice and conspiracy against Dzhokhar. I know you will never give up, so I look forward to when you begin to blog again. There are still lots of us out there and we are not going anywhere. Take care my friend.

  2. Please do not let anyone get you away from what you believe for, what you strive for. Be strong for yourself and for Dzhokhar. Your opinion matters to us.

    1. Someone tried, and failed badly. I, or should I say, the Lord, left him in the dust. This clown will have no influence on me going forward. I march to God’s orders only, no matter what the crazy ones accuse me of. I am actually glad I had the experience of being attacked and falsely accused by this person. I came out of it even stronger, more focused and more convinced God has indeed called me to fight for Dzhokhar. I know He has called you too, Josee!

      1. Whoever accused you you must forgive. I know it is hard. One day last year I was in a bus and I met this person who was from Trinidad Tobago and she told me that we have to look at this case in a peaceful way if we want God to help us. I looked at her like ‘are you out of your mind!’ but she is right. We have to forgive everyone and I mean everyone, even OToole and company.

  3. I’m a bit shocked. I feel like Dzhokhar’s last link to the world will disappear. It has been hard to keep faith when people slowly lost interest in the case, when people are being silenced on Tumblr and Facebook and the only last one I see on Tumblr pretend to defend him while saying he is guilty. It is heartbreaking (for all of Dzhokhar’s supporters, it does seem like it is harder and harder to be heard), it does feel like they got away with it, he will never be set free and the truth known. But I understand your well being comes first and you fought harder than anyone, so you are probably more tired than anyone. I wish you the best in life.

    1. I am so touched by your well-wishes. Thank you! I am not out of the fight, just going silent on the blog for now. How long I will be absent from blogging remains to be seen. I am pursuing another avenue to help Dzhokhar that needs my total attention for awhile. If I do occasionally blog, it will likely be to continue the You’ve Got Mail series which is written directly to Dzhokhar. I do have unfinished and important topics to blog about but I need a break. To say I am tired (mentally) is an understatement. Time to restore some balance. I wouldn’t be surprised if I don’t return at some point though so stay tuned. Thank you for your kind support!

    1. Thank you, Mary. That was certainly my intent in addition to helping people see Dzhokhar’s innocence!

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