If you and I are going to stand, we must take the Word of God to heart and stand on that. An old hymn I know comes to mind. Part of the lyrics says: On Christ the solid rock I stand. All other ground is sinking sand. All other ground is sinking sand.
I and some other believers in Jesus know things are happening to you that we have no earthly way of knowing. God is revealing them to us to encourage us to continue praying and to continue believing. And what is it that we are believing? That, against all odds, no matter the might or number of the forces we see gathered together against you, you will be exonerated and set free.
This book of the law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do all that is written in it; for then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have success. Joshua 1: 8
So, you may ask, how did I get myself in such a state yesterday? How did I lose my confidence in the promise God had given me concerning the cancer?
While I was still in the surgeon’s office God spoke to me this scripture:
If your right hand offends you, cut it off.
I was correct about one thing: God was asking me to cut something off that was troubling (offending) me. I immediately assumed He was now telling me to have the mastectomy, to cut off the offending breast where the cancer was.
I was wrong.
When God gives you a promise, when He quickens a verse or passage of the Bible to you, when He does this as you are seeking an answer on a specific issue or situation, you may recall I explained this is a Rhema (meaning living) word from Him for that particular need or situation. I have received many such Rhema words from God over the years.
The problem comes when we do not hold onto those promises long enough to see the fulfillment of what we have been believing for. Whenever we take a stand of faith, where the outcome will bring our God much glory and help create or increase faith in others, you can bet the devil will work overtime to get us to abandon the cause prematurely.
Fear will come. Doubt will follow. People wil come. Oftentimes those closest to us, family, will be used to try to talk us out of our trust in the Lord. Those are the things the Lord was telling me to cut off.
My sister cares, but she is not a believer. She is religious, but has no living, personal relationship with Jesus like you and I do. She does not understand things as we do. She calls me on the phone to express her fear, her doubt, her disapproval of the way I am handling the cancer diagnosis.
I feel sorry for the suffering this is causing her; I know my decisions frighten her because she is not able to understand them. I told the Lord how I wished my last scan had shown all traces of the cancer were gone just to put my sister out of her misery.
I am not trying to make life difficult for my family. I am trying to listen to my God who has always led me and never failed me. And you must do the same.
You may have to break contact with your family, specifically your mom, which I know would likely be intolerable for both of you at first. Your dad may be more agreeable, if not actually supportive, of your newfound faith in Jesus. Your mom may need much more time before she can accept that you will not, in fact, be dying for Allah after all. That you will not be dying, period. That you will be exonerated and released and once released, you will follow the path that Jesus, not Allah, not mom, shows you.
Some who do not know what we know are angered when I write to you about such things and that is beyond my control and none of my concern.
Why are you in despair, o my soul, and why are you disturbed within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him, the help of my countenance and my God. Psalm 43: 5
At some point, someone with the power to make it happen will figure out that we should be allowed to correspond and they will make it happen. Until then, I will continue writing to you through my blog. I apologize for my occasional long silences.
Stay strong Jahar by staying in the Word. May the blessings of peace that surpasses understanding be upon you as you trust in Christ Jesus. And upon me as well. Our God is ever faithful.