What Would I Do?

Some who have read this blog from the beginning may find it hard to believe, but I used to be afraid of my own shadow. If I try really hard, I can dimly recall what it was like to be that person. But no more… that ship has sailed.

Now, the God I believe in, the God I love and am learning to trust no matter what, no matter how bad things get, that God is kicking fear to the curb.

It took a long time for me to arrive at my current belief regarding what happened at the Boston Marathon in 2013. And I have changed positions more than once on who I believe made those events happen.

It took the so-called bombing in Brussels to finally open my eyes to what some have been saying all along: that governments really do use crisis actors sometimes to stage events they can call acts of terrorism. The actors did such a poor job in Brussels and the footage of the damage was just not what one would expect from a bomb powerful enough to kill and injure. It takes more than fallen ceiling tiles, scattered luggage and excited people running to convince me now. I was able to see for myself that something was terribly wrong about the official story.

When I stumbled upon the narrated camera footage on the Peekay Boston You Tube channel, I eventually realized that I was seeing yet another government farce. And the narrator kept mentioning Jeff Bauman…

The picture of Jeff Bauman being wheeled down the street, conscious and sitting upright after both legs were supposedly blown off always made me suspicious, though I ignored those quiet misgivings for a long time.

A young-ish family member had a leg amputated – it is expensive. And an amputation leaves you weak for awhile – it is a shock to the body – not something that leaves you ready to throw out the first pitch a short time later…

I understand through the grapevine that some are angry with me for my now-publicly stated beliefs. I actually expected that.

The man who narrated the videos I found so convincing is just being himself, but I do wish he could have refrained from the name-calling and profanity. I am of the opinion that the crisis actors were just doing what they had been hired to do and there was nothing wrong with that – at first.

Imagine having had or needing to have an amputation for a prior injury, birth defect or disease. Imagine having had an amputation but not being able to afford the prosthetic.  Then you find out about this crisis-actor gig and how well it pays…

I am sure the people who planned and managed this “event” did not sit the prospective amputee actors down and tell them they were planning to stage a bombing drill at the Boston Marathon that would then be blamed on a person or persons whose lives the government needed to end or just completely destroy. If they had, no one would have agreed to do it.

I like to think regular people are not that evil.

However, when these amputee crisis actors saw how this drill then became a crime/terrorist act that was blamed on certain individuals, when they saw one young man lose his life and the other nearly killed then incarcerated for two years, when they saw that young boy put on trial and saw the scars of the horrific injuries he suffered, how did they then continue the charade? How did they take the stand and tearfully tell their scripted stories?

There isn’t enough money in the world that you could offer me to do that to another human being.

Proverbs 1:19 says “Such are the paths of all who make profit dishonestly; it takes the lives of those who receive it.”

Hard as I might try, I wouldn’t be able to get around that verse no matter how bad I wanted or needed the money.

Survivor guilt, also called survivor’s syndrome, is a mental condition that occurs when a person perceives that they have done wrong by surviving a traumatic event when others did not. The documentaries I have seen about survivor guilt have all concerned individuals who were the sole survivor of a mass-fatality event (usually the wreck of an airplane or ocean liner.)

There were multitudes who ran away from the Boston Marathon bombing and many who survived albeit with some type of “injury. ” Of fatalities that day, there were only three – if any.

Two of the “survivors” of the Boston Marathon bombing talked about experiencing survivor guilt in the Peekay Boston videos. That is understandable – but not in the way I’m sure they meant it to be understood.

Both of these people were only peripherally involved in the events that day. One, a young man, stated this in his own words when he spoke in front of cameras and the other, a woman, is clearly shown to be acting and uninjured… until she shows up at Dzhokhar’s arraignment months later.

I believe these people do feel tremendous guilt and I feel tremendous sadness for them. If they want to come clean now and tell the world they were paid to act out a bombing, if they want to tell the world they had prior amputations or deformities that needed an eventual amputation they could not afford until this acting gig came along, they are unable to do so because the FBI has secrets to keep.

I imagine the same threats that worked to make the defense say “it was him” and not defend Dzhokhar at the trial, the same threats keeping the family in line, those threats are being used to keep the amputee crisis actors in line too and that is horrible for them to have to live with.

How I would love to see them band together, gather their medical records and old insurance claims proving when their injuries and amputations occurred, and when and by whom they had already received payment and suddenly reveal all to the world. I know the likelihood of that happening is low but I would still love to see it happen before another male victim dies suddenly in the prime of life after a brief illness or another young female victim dies suddenly in a car accident in a foreign country with both feeling this is the only way they can stop being a Boston Marathon bombing “survivor” and go on with their lives.

I was surprised to learn of a third death, that of a first responder who treated “victims” in the medical tent at the Boston Marathon. He apparently died suddenly of a heart attack. Was this person threatening to expose the hoax or ready to retire from his 15 minutes of fame …

I can’t help wondering, no matter who it offends.

Someday, the hard questions must be answered by someone. If they are not, how many more will be put to death in state-sanctioned murders? How many more will live out their lives in solitary confinement under SAMs to keep them quiet?

Is this what America has become?

So what would I do if I had become caught up in this mess?

I would heed the words of Proverbs 6: 1 – 6

My son, if you have become surety for your neighbor, have given a pledge for a stranger, if you have been snared with the words of your mouth, have been caught with the words of your mouth, do this then, my son, and deliver yourself; since you have come into the hand of your neighbor, go, humble yourself, and importune your neighbor. Give no sleep to your eyes, nor slumber to your eyelids; deliver yourself like a gazelle from the hunter’s hand and like a bird from the hand of the fowler.

I would have calmly taken the witness stand and in the middle of my expected testimony, veered suddenly and decidedly off-script, coming clean with the truth – before attorneys for the prosecution could stop me. In the melee that would certainly follow, Judy Clarke’s “it was him” statement would be all but forgotten.

I am suddenly remembering a little song we used to sing in church years ago:

 Though none go with me, still I will follow. Though none go with me, still I will follow. Though none go with me, still I will follow. No turning back… no turning back.

Published by: iwasleah10years

Winston Churchill said no crime is so great as daring to excel. I am ready to take that dare. An unexpected and somewhat unexplainable compassion for Dzhokhar Tsarnaev has drawn me out of my comfort zone.


4 thoughts on “What Would I Do?”

  1. I like this post Lynn. I’m sure it was hard to come out and say it after changing your belief about what happened at the marathon. I too had immediate misgivings about the iconic Jeff Bauman picture, because it made no sense at all and because there was no blood dripping and because it certainly seems that he had no right leg to begin with, and whatever is sticking out of his left leg, does not resemble a bone at all. Then, just one week later he is looking great, in a wheelchair, gone to visit another victim in the hospital who was having a birthday. No one with a double leg amputation would ever be able to do that and that’s a fact. I too wonder how anyone could continue with such a deception, a crime actually, when a young man was being sentenced to death. It’s almost hard to recognize the world we now live it. Some how, in time the truth will come out.

  2. Another great blog Lynn…I couldn’t do it either. Sit in a kangaroo court and gently look into the eyes of a once compassionate boy who once loved life to the fullest and give testimony of lies and tall tales as an innocent young man takes full blame for a bombing he did not commit. It was all staged from the beginning even when O’Toole said ‘We Are In On This Together’….every juror knew their task…every victim knew their task. It sealed a guilty verdict and death sentence right? Just what they were aiming for in the beginning. Great writing Lynn..

  3. I have to say that it is about time that we start discussing the victims. Investigating the victims does not mean that we do not respect the ‘real’ victims. If we want find out the real truth we have to be able to examine everyting and that includes the alleged victims. In the end if the investigation leads to proof of real victims well so be it, but the investigation could well lead to crisis actors. The truth deserves a full investigation.

    Thank you for this post.

    1. Thank you! I need all the support I can get as I wade into this sensitive and highly controversial aspect.

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